lunes, 21 de julio de 2014

¡¡Niiiiños, niiiiños, futuuuro, futuuuro!!

Cuarto. Cuarto año ya. Hasta ahora había llevado una vida despreocupada de risas y fiesta en estos tres años de carrera. Sin embargo, ahora es cuando se pone la cosa seria. Trabajo de fin de grado, buscar un tema, un título, un profesor. Prácticas externas en las cuales espero que no me exploten como la chacha del café y las fotocopias. Exponer ante el tribunal en inglés. Suponiendo que lo anterior sea un éxito. What's next? ¿Qué me deparará el después? Me inquieta el hecho de que se vea el borde de un acantilado con un gran interrogante rojo puta al final.

Sinceramente, posibilidades no descarto, de hecho, he ampliado un gran abanico de posibilidades. Aunque la verdad, todas y cada una de ellas requiere dinero. Salvo que me dedique desde ese momento a buscar trabajo como cajera, da igual como quieras seguir formándote porque siempre te tendrás que dejar la pasta. ¡Joder cómo se aprovechan macho! Muchas salidas que toma la gente es buscar trabajo para poder pagar su formación para poder trabajar. ¡ES UNA PUTA PARADOJA DE COJONES!

En fin, no quiero estresarme más. Ahora debería centrarme en sacar 4º y currarme el trabajo de fin de grado. Con un poco de suerte, a finales de junio del año que viene seré una lengüimodernista de la segunda generación.

¡Filólogos al poder!

sábado, 22 de marzo de 2014

L'Étranger par Charles Baudelaire

''-Qui aimes-tu le mieux, homme énigmatique, dis ?
ton père, ta mère, ta soeur ou ton frère ?
- Je n'ai ni père, ni mère, ni soeur, ni frère.
- Tes amis ?
- Vous vous servez là d'une parole dont le sens m'est
resté jusqu'à ce jour inconnu.
- Ta patrie ?
- J'ignore sous quelle latitude elle est située.
- La beauté ?
- Je l'aimerais volontiers, déesse et immortelle.
- L'or ?
- Je le hais comme vous haïssez Dieu.
- Eh ! qu'aimes-tu donc, extraordinaire étranger ?
- J'aime les nuages... les nuages qui passent... là-bas...
là-bas... les merveilleux nuages !''

domingo, 16 de marzo de 2014

This one is for him

''This is Winter coming to an end,
many strong winds have flown
coldness turn into life then
and some flowers may be born.

This is the season of cheerfulness
the season of women meeting men
and what a wonderful explosion of joyfulness
when some become more than friends.

These flowers emerge
so love does
and it is on the verge
of being the only one.''

Love you, honey <3

The Song of Both

I found I like writing when I feel sad or inspired. Even though my writing is not that good, I like to write things just for myself, I don't expect you to understand me. I've started to write a story in a notebook of mine and maybe it's bullshit but it's how I express myself. It is a way of being, of existing. I think I'm starting to interact with my self, not the word myself as a physic person but the self, my I deep inside. All I've been saving from I was a little child is starting to go out, fortunately not in a rude way but through words, through writing. It doesn't matter in which language because the point is that I can communicate with my self and explore what I'm feeling or what I've felt before and have a better knowledge of me.
These are some verses I've written tonight, don't ask why. I feel like writing so here they are! And once again, I don't expect you to understand or to judge whether they're good or not, that's just because I want to write anything :) Peace! xx

''Many dreams we used to have
which are finally gone
with a blowing wind high above
it gets the path undone.
I could not find your hand
and get lost in the dark
standing alone.

Don't let me here!
were the words shouted
but oh, my dear!
words must be empty
'cause I couldn't hear
the song of both.''

sábado, 4 de enero de 2014

New Year's Eve

The last day of the year has finally come and you may wonder, how come? Has really passed a whole year? So fast? At that point we start thinking about what we have done during this period. We recall all those memories, some of them full of happiness and joy, some other not that good but they are still there. 'Well, it has not been a very bad year after all.' says with a nice smile drew on your face. 

Then, you realise that you have to prepare all the stuff for celebrating this ending. Firstly, you have to start preparing the menu, say, choosing all the different dishes you should prepare before all the guests come at night. What to do? 'The starter may be a potatoes salad and then we can go on with roast beef... but auntie Clare cannot eat anything with potatoes... mmh oh! and little Susie is vegetarian! So, well I can cook some pasta for them.' And this is the start of the chaos. Then, you remember that you have forgotten to get the beef out of the refrigerator before to start cooking it, so that it is completely frozen. Finally, after hours and hours spent on cooking a decent meal, you call to some take-away restaurant and ask for a roast beef. After forty five minutes, the roast beef appears and you have the complete meal done! 

Oh, wait! My guests will be here in 1 hour and I am not dressed yet!' Faster than Michael Schumacher you get bathed and start deciding what kind of hair-looking get. May you get it straightenend or get it curly and natural, may you get it into a ponytail or just like it is? After ten minutes you get it straightened and then another chaos arrive. What should I wear? 'This dress makes me look fatter, this one is too elegant, this is too flourish...' 23 dresses, 4 skirts, 5 trousers, 3 leggings and 7 blouses after, you choose the third black dress you wore. Then, you get your make-up done and put on your new and expensive high-heeled shoes that you were looking for in like 4 shoe-shops. 

'Ding-dong!' The guests have arrived. You go quickly downstairs and with a very large but tired smile you open the door. 4 little children come in as wild animals and you, after an irritating look at the children, say hello to all the family. Once that everyone is sit down at the table and the dinner is served, all start eating. Also, it starts all the questions about your life, 'Do you have a boyfriend? How's your job? Are you fatter?' etc, etc, etc.

After trying to answer those invasive questions as nice as possible, it is almost midnight and everyone gets prepared for the last event. All have the grapes and the clock starts ringing: '1...2...3...11...12!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!!'' And the fireworks starts to explode on the dark and cold sky outside. Everyone is excited and taking their drinks full of champagne meanwhile you are standing on your own, in a corner with your drink almost empty, watching the firework display from the window. 'I dont know why I'm feeling so blue, it is supposed to be a good and happy night, it doesn't happen anything bad at all during the dinner.' The mobile phone rings. 'Hello?' It is Mark, your best friend. He and a group of people are going to go to Trafalgar Square and they are inviting you to pass the rest of the night with them. Another smile is drawn on your face meanwhile your answering a very clear YES. 

With some difficulties you say goodbye to the family, take your coat and go almost flying to the street, that one full of people wearing very elegant clothes and after twenty minutes, you can finally get a taxi. In thirty minutes you arrive and find Mark.


TO BE CONTINUED...

miércoles, 1 de enero de 2014

I love you, honey

Sometimes I wonder whether I have had these feelings hidden inside me, whether I have had grown up trying not to show them and seeming strong. I have always considered myself as a non-romantic person but all that have changed. As Taylor Swift's song says, 'everything has changed'. Who had known that you were going to be so important for me, my beloved? Since that day in September, you were the one who got my walls break down so that my feelings went out quick. I think I have always tried to hide them because I wanted to make people believe that I am not a teenager anymore. A teenager that is always saying stupid romantic things, making people puke rainbows haha! But, what the hell? The thing is that I love you so much, I'm always thinking of you almost all the time. Also, I miss you when I'm not with you. You are the only one who can make me smile just looking at you. Even though when we are about to say our goodbyes, I'm already missing you, it is incredible! 

During these months we have been together, I've enjoyed every second spent with you. We have done many things I hadn't done on my own. Those memories will be there forever, I love you, darling, you do not know how much I do <3